So, yeah, I was called into a conference room and I ended up having to fill up one of those cardboard boxes which were in the hallway. Don't worry about me. I'll be fine. Let me explain:
I'd been meaning to write a post like this for some time, but things have played out such that I have to write it anyway. I've felt that my life's been at a crossroads, with every path leading towards good. On one hand, I enjoyed my time at Sun a great deal. My act is finally together, I finally had stability, both my mental and physical well-being are greatly improved and sound, my career is on track, my financial situation is great, and so on. The job itself was great - the best I ever had, to be honest - with work I enjoyed and co-workers I liked both professionally and personally. At the same time, I have the wanderlust and there are things I'm looking for that I'm just not finding here. There were times at work where I'd be sitting in my cubicle, staring at a backup tape and wondering if that's what I want my life to be. Still, I'd been sweating out layoffs and obnoxious managerial situations at Sun for quite some time now, and I suppose the ideal outcome would've been to stay at Sun and keep the stability I'd been seeking for a very long time.
However, other opportunities have presented themselves. I could rent out a place in Hungary and hang out there for quite some time (honestly, a year or more). I have a standing job offer from a friend in Germany. The pay wouldn't be great, but it'd be a fun way to see Europe for a while as well as being a life raft until the economy improves. I could find another job with my newly-developed skills and experience. These are all possibilities I've created through my own efforts and skills and networking and friendships.
I can even just chill out around here a while, and work on projects and travel here and there and get caught up on videogames and such. I'd have no excuse for not learning Hungarian. :) There are friends in Boston I could see more, as well as friends and family in Montreal, NYC, SF, Vermont, San Jose, Atlanta, Providence/Pawtucket, and so on. Oh right, and I could take more horse riding lessons up in Vermont. I have a trip to Spain coming up next week, and thank goodness I procrastinated on buying the plane ticket, 'cause I'm no longer bound by vacation days. I'll probably spend 3 weeks over there, going back to my original idea of visiting Spain, Italy, and Tunisia. It'd be fun to get one of those cheap Iceland Air deals this winter. I've always wanted to see the Mayan ruins, and I could very well do that, too.
Money-wise, I'm in great shape. I'm still fully on Sun's payroll until January 3rd, and I get 6 weeks of severance pay on top of that, plus about 7 days of vacation pay. If I don't find a job or run off to Europe by then, there's 6 months of unemployment. Truth be told, if I wanted to milk it, I could go 10 months to a year without working before I touched my savings. Like I said, don't worry about me. I'll be fine.
It's not without frustration, of course. I liked that job. I don't want to burn up my savings. I just bought my new $89 bus pass today. I had to pick through the leftovers of the Winter Classic seats 'cause I couldn't order them as soon as they were available today (yes, yes, I'll be there and that's what matters). I need to get a gym membership so I can stay on track with my fitness efforts. I'll need health coverage - anyone know of good options, particularly for keeping up with prescriptions? I really liked the stability and the (sorta kinda) sense of security, and now I'm facing uncertainty. I will have to find a new job _again_, and I hoped I finally had broken that pattern.
All in all, I consider this to be the less good of the possible outcomes, but still good. I'm not down or sad or depressed or upset. I'm happy, annoyed, optimistic, and uncertain. It's going to be a lot of fun, and I have to make sure I get a job before I _need_ to get a job. At least this time, I have a lot of time.